Mystical Heart - Chapters from new book!

Mystical Heart

A Soul Work Guide to Sacred Beauty, Self-Love,Sensuality and Awakening Your Divine Enchantress

Introduction

In 2017, I left my corporate job as a Director of Content at Ogilvy & Mather to embark on a journey of the heart. I returned to the Goddess Island of Ibiza as a seeker on a quest for wholeness. The truth was, after all the spiritual work I had done over the last seven hears, my heart was still broken.
My friends and family saw the transformation that had taken place after my divorce, my eat pray love experience in Ibiza, and the success of multiple best-selling books and my brand.
It wasn’t enough…

Why was it not enough?

There were those parts of me unhealed, unheard, neglected that needed tending to. Like a garden I had forgotten to water and appreciate, weeds had gathered in place of flowers.

I was attached to my past still. Somehow I was attached to the identity of being a wife and not being a wife. Belonging to someone and not belonging to someone.

What was my identity now?

I was still searching outside of myself for someone to fill me up and validate my worthiness. My deep fear of being abandoned, never finding an equal partner that matched my fire and depth and the fear of being alone left me feeling very trapped and controlled.

I had been searching, yearning, seeking, running, reaching, craving: This is how I  acted out my unworthiness. In a culture of unworthiness I absorbed messages such as “You complete me”. In Eastern culture we are taught that ego is a two-sided coin. On one side we have arrogance and on the other side we have unworthiness. Both are equal manifestations of an inauthentic self.

My internal narrative sounded like, “On my own am simply not enough.”

I went deep inside myself to search for that treasure and what had been eluding me all my life.

For two years, I explored my emotions with softness and compassion. I traveled through a tunnel that seemed to be never ending.

The deeper I went into my emotions, the more information about myself was revealed to me. I wanted to stop the internal journey many times as I didn’t see a light or an end. I thought I would be stuck here forever.

But I wasn’t stuck.. The only was out was through.

From the depths of my emotions, where hurt, bitterness and loss had been trapped and where beauty, worthiness and innocence were also hidden – I saw my true self, radiant and shining. A mermaid reaching for the sun.

When I emerged on the other side, still washed over from the experience, there was a cup in my hands. An elixir I had brought back from the wild unknown. The cup offered wisdom and love.

The emotions rose up as soft as waves washing my heart. Those waves broke me open to the love in my heart and to the love I wanted to share with the world. A soft power that I think every woman secretly aches and desires to share. A love so pure and innocent, that existed before loss and betrayal. A love so vast, crystal clear, shining and life-giving – reflecting the beauty of this world.

This book is my cup of love to share with all of you. May my enchanted journey nourish you with the love you long to be filled with.


Love is a sacred flow
of comings and going
when the wave arrives
follow just follow…


Waves of love,
Zinnia


Full chapters can be read here:

The Divine Enchantress
The Legend of the Mermaid
The Journey of Your Heart

Discovering your treasure
Sacredness
Soul gifts (Beauty)
Pleasure and Passion
Softness
Playfulness
Rest and reflection
Compassion
Intimacy

Tools for Transformation
Removing the masks
Loving without attachment